create the same

Sometimes you are just trying to create the same. again and again.  not different. but the same same. like in a dream where it is important to get back to one point and then step forward again.  but you end up repeating this step over and over. it cannot be identicated.

because. each time you repeat this step everything changes.  it may be only slight. but of course this is a dream and in dreams the slightest change creates vast changes in the atmosphere.  the entire pangea is become other.  the other is no longer recognizable.

all events have slid slightly sideways and nothing will line up correctly. like the tiny differences between people, which in their totality -their new totality -create suddenly unempathetic beings. so close but with differences that are monstrous wedges between them. events will never line up again for the same recreation.

yet as these entities grow and decay and disappear the differences are unnoticeable.  one cannot explain them in a meaningful way.  When they failed you was it they who failed or you who failed to make a tiny adjustment. all movement decordinates.

And almost immediately. as soon as the lights flicker off for a moment then come back on.  The images exist but with a perceptible. an utter change. a flaw so fatal. the veiled object no longer carries you within it.